Wild, insane, hedonist working to constrain my inner beast into conforming to society ...part of me

Reserved, afraid, sad, morose, introspective trying to learn to be free...and happy...part of me

Angry, resentful, raging against ignorance and the inequity of life...part of me

...learning to be the real me...compiling all the parts into one wholeness...

I'm a middle aged Southern woman who is having an existential crisis regarding my place in this world. I've raised my daughter and now I don't know who the "real me" is outside of being "Mother". God is my solace in my turbulent heart.

James 1:2-4 says to "2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

sooooo I'm working toward perfection for my salvation...only God above knows who is the "real me"